aka falling in love with your doctor isn’t that bad
(also, hey, new page up for song translations~)

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ああ
(aa)
[ Ah ]

灰になってしまった
(hai ni natte shimatta)
[ Reduced to ashes– ]

貰った花は既に枯れていた
(moratta hana wa sude ni kareteita)
[ The flowers I got had already withered. ]

愛を簡単に言う
(ai o kantan ni iu)
[ Words of love are easy to say. ]

最低の
(saite no)
[ The worst, ]

最低のひと
(saite no hito)
[ Lowest human being. ]

灰になってしまった
(hai ni natte shimatta)
[ Reduced to ashes– ]

貰った花は既に枯れていた
(moratta hana wa sude ni kareteita)
[ The flowers I got had already withered. ]

愛を簡単に言う
(ai o kantan ni iu)
[ Words of love are easy to say. ]

最低の
(saite no)
[ The worst, ]

最低の
(saite no)
[ Lowest of the low– ]

あなたは
(anata wa)
[ You. ]

「 生きることは傷つくこと 」
(ikiru koto wa kizutsuku koto)
[ “To continue living is to continue hurting.” ]

破れた
(yabureta)
[ Torn apart– ]

この気持ちはどこに いくの
(kono kimochi wa doko ni iku no)
[ Where did my feelings go? ]

明け方、
(akegata)
[ The sun sets, ]

私は人魚みたいに
(watashi wa ningyo mitai ni)
[ I’m like a mermaid. ]

泡になっては消えてゆくのでしょう
(awa ni natte wa kiete yuku no deshou)
[ Like sea-foam, eventually I’ll dissipate. ]

こんな拍手を浴びたって
(konna hakushu o abitatte)
[ Receiving these applause– ]

腹の足しにもならないし
(hara no tashi ni mo naranaishi)
[ Is not enough to satisfy me. ]

愛してなどと言ってはいなくて
(aishitenado to itte wa inakute)
[ I haven’t said I love you just yet, but. ]

この退屈を殺してほしい
(kono taikutsu o koroshite hoshii)
[ I want you to kill this boredom ]

欲しいのはあなた 占めて溢れる
(hoshii no wa anata shimete afureru)
[ I want you. Overwhelmingly so– ]

まだ、
(mada)
[ Still, ]

恋の仕方も知らない
(koi no shikata mo shiranai)
[ I don’t know how to love ]

恋の仕方も知らない
(koi ni shikata mo shiranai)
[ I don’t know how to love ]

ああ
(aa)
[ Ah ]

灰になってしまった
(hai ni natte shimatta)
[ Reduced to ashes– ]

貰った花は既に枯れていた
(moratta hana wa sude ni kareteita)
[ The flowers I got had already withered. ]

愛を簡単に言う
(ai o kantan ni iu)
[ Words of love are easy to say. ]

最低の
(saite no)
[ The worst, ]

最低のひと
(saite no hito)
[ Lowest human being. ]

朧になってしまって
(oboro no natte shimatte)
[ It’s becoming hazy– ]

昨日のことも覚えていないの
(kinou no koto mo oboetenai no)
[ Have you also forgotten about yesterday? ]

涅槃に発ってしまった
(nehan ni tatte shimatta)
[ I may have reached nirvana ]

この意識と
(kono ishiki to)
[ with this consciousness ]

星降る夜
(hoshifuruyoru)
[ and the starry night sky ]

止め処ない
(tomedonai)
[ Don’t let this end. ]

「 生きることは、 嘘をつくこと 」
(ikiru koto wa uso o tsuku koto)
[ “To continue living is to continue lying.” ]

なぜならこの気持ちは
(naze nara kono kimochi wa)
[ Why? Because these feelings ]

ここにはない
(koko ni wa nai)
[ are not here ]

明け方、
(akegata)
[ The sun sets, ]

私は人魚みたいに
(watashi wa ningyo mitai ni)
[ I’m like a mermaid– ]

花になっては枯れて行くのでしょう
(hana ni natte wa karete iku no deshou)
[ Becoming a flower; I’ll wither, and then I’ll go. ]

なけなしの私のナルシズム満たす愛燦々
(nakenashi no watashi no narushizumu mitasu ai sansan)
[ Satisfying what little narcissism I have left, magnificently so ]

もとから空耳なんかはなくて
(moto kara soramimi nanka wa nakute)
[ Rather than hearing voices from the void. ]

すべて私の独り言でした
(subete watashi no hitorigoto deshita)
[ Everything was my thoughts spoken aloud. ]

世界は今日も続くし
(sekai wa kyou mo tsudzukushi)
[ The world moves on even today ]

心などここにない
(kokoro nado koko ni nai)
[ My heart is no longer here– ]

サーカスティックに崩壊
(saakasutikku ni houkai)
[ Collapsing in my own sarcasm. ]

明け方、
(akegata)
[ The sun sets, ]

夢うつつとつかない
(yumeutsutsu to tsukanai)
[ I can’t tell whether I’m awake or asleep. ]

水面に泡となる走馬灯
(minamo ni awa to naru soumatou)
[ Sea-foam on the revolving lantern. ]

世界が終わる時ここに
(sekai ga owaru toki koko ni)
[ By the time the world ends, here– ]

私とあなただけでした
(watashi to anata dakedeshita)
[ It was only you and I. ]

愛してなどと言っていなくて
(ai shite nado to itte inakute)
[ I haven’t’ said I love you just yet, but ]

この退屈を殺してほしかった
(kono taikutsu o koroshite hoshikatta)
[ I wanted you to kill this boredom. ]

間違っていたのはあなた
(machigatte ita no wa anata)
[ You got it wrong– ]

負けたのは私
(maketa no wa watashi)
[ I’m the loser. ]

恋の仕方も
(koi no shikata mo)
[ How to love, ]

恋の仕方も知らない
(koi no shikata mo shiranai)
[ I don’t know how to love. ]

恋の仕方も知らない
(koi no shikata mo shiranai)
[ I don’t know how to love. ]

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人魚 (ningyo) [ lit. man-fish, mermaid ] is a song off of POLKADOT STINGRAY’s (at the time of this post) upcoming EP.

The song appears to draw some of its themes from Hans Christian Andersen’s “The Little Mermaid”, with many direct allusions to the aforementioned work. For instance, turning, or dissipating into sea-foam is a reference to how Andersen chose to depict a mermaid’s death.

The scene of a one-sided love is switched and played around a bit in that the patient (in this case the mermaid) becomes infatuated with the doctor (the prince) that saved her — or, in the case here, just attending to her. Because the patient/mermaid doesn’t know how to love, she can no longer bring herself to live on; as the story goes,

“[…] if you do not win the love of the prince, so that he is willing to forget his father and mother for your sake and to love you with his whole soul and allow the priest to join your hands that you may be man and wife, then you will never have an immortal soul. The first morning after he marries another, your heart will break and you will become foam on the crest of the waves.”

POLKADOT STINGRAY is definitely a band to look out for (like a new age Tokyo Jihen for you J-music aficionados). I featured one of their songs in a previous post, but do check out their other stuff as well over here.

As always, these translations are far from perfect and I welcome any and all corrections/comments/critiques 😀